beyond planet parenthood

Hooooray! I'm all hormoned up, I'm good for appointments for the next 3 months! I have battled the creatures on Planet Parenthood, they have taken much from my coffers and even 5 vials of my blood. This time was particularly awful, I was hoping to go to a clinic in San Fransisco, but I haven't quite made it out there yet. SO I end up going to planned parenthood appointment-less, which is not fun. There were way more protesters than usual this morning which is always fun! I feel so bad for the people who take them seriously, there must be a lot of sad catholic girls out there who feel like their eternal salvation may not come due to using birth control or getting an abortion. I don't like speaking on this particular subject, both abortion or eternal salvation, but planned parenthood does help a lot of people. I think of it like Wal-Mart, everyone working there doesn't want to be there, and the clientèle is largely rude and ignorant, and though they do a plethora of different things, they stir up special interest groups for 1 thing in particular, like selling guns or performing abortions. Hopefully, I will never find myself in either of those places again. On the first of the year I will have state-employee healthcare again, which is awesome, so next check-up will be with a doctor of my choosing. 

Not Planned Parenthood isn't all bad, its the front end that is tough to get past, and though the nurses seem to be a little clumsy with a needle (i have a nasty bruise where I got poked) they are generally caring and friendly and make you feel comfortable, I always get nervous and stuff when I see the doctor, very few people have touched my breasts and I was admittedly a little scruffy, my self esteem was at risk but I also don't like being a transperson at planned parenthood, it's a pretty rough place and people don't keep their opinions to themselves. I did get a vote of confidence when a local leader in the trans-community arrived at about the same-time as  me, as powerful, smart, dynamic transgirl, and she was in heels and her business attire. After catching up I realized that things really are tough all around, but sometimes giving the impression that it isn't helps keep the momentum going, keeps the people around you inspired, this world really needs a groundswell movement of positivity if we're ever going to expect peace and love to be consistent themes.

After getting through all the front-end nonsense, I saw a new doctor, did the physical stuff, told her I was going to stick with my current dose. I had a few questions for her which I will go into in the next post. I'm pretty exhausted, I still have some more writing to do, i just can't promise anything, I'm going to go find a big shady tree to eat strawberries and nap under. More soon.